France

Can't remember the last time I posted something. Life is a bit hectic and unfocused these days. Well, it's days away from visiting Z. It will be one of the more impulsive decisions I've made. Why not, I believe in spontaneity. Routines certainly have their place in my life. Sometimes I need the unexpected, things out of ordinary. So France, here I come.

Went to have my passport photos taken today. I knew I wasn't in my 20s anymore, still, when the pictures came out I was surprised. "Dude, I look old!" Good thing I don't have to look at my face every minute of the day. Try as I might, fighting aging is a pretty much a losing game for me. No amount of vitamins or creams will fix what's not happening or happening on my face and my head. Well, at least I still fit in my jeans.

Then, looking around, I see I have plenty. More than a lot of people. I am blessed, and I don't always appreciate what I have. Too many complaints, too focused on the negatives, often I see the problems but fail to see the blessings. I tell myself: Stay grateful, and stay positive. Be kind, and be thoughtful. Life always feels good when my mind is in the right place.

Seattle once more

Another trip tomorrow... Seattle, a very feminine city as I would call it... Rain, misty, moody... here I come. On Thursday morning I finally submitted 2 applications, one more to go when I get back. I really feel this is the right step forward, and I think people agree. It's very touching to hear and receive Dave's support. Of course I don't know how it will all go down, but I am happy I made the decision. On the personal front, I have realized being single has been less painful than I thought. It's probably because there's something else to focus on, not as much stress to find someone, get to know someone, and settle down with someone. I'm just going with the flow these days. Whatever comes in my path, I will embrace it.

Turned 35 Today

I'm 35 today. I did the regular work shift, and took a little nap before dinner. Moles La Tia was a nice charming place for delicious Mexican food. Dave, Jose, and PK joined me on my little celebration. We ordered a lot of food, the lady was a little confused with Dave's vegetarian instruction... In the end, she got everything right and we were very happy, satisfied customers. I bought a Japanese-style cheesecake for us to enjoy after the feast. It was not the best birthday cake we had, a little dry and subtle in flavor, but it was small enough for 4 and we even saved a slice for the lady + owner. She was very gracious and sweet, asked what my name would be in Spanish, and told me she really liked the cake (where did we get it?) I came home, felt relaxed, and uploaded some pics onto Facebook. I don't feel that different. I know I am very blessed to have friends like Dave, Jose and PK in my life. When the heart is content, everything else is simply a bonus. Of course, I am not always the happiest of the bunch, and I do have very cranky moments from time to time. Still, I feel grounded after the dust settles, and whenever I go through my rants and complaints... I know in my heart I am supported by many who love who and what I am. To that end, I know the upcoming years will be eventful, exciting, and fair. I am indeed very, very lucky.