I had a "friendly dinner" with someone adorable tonight. I didn't want to call it a "date" because it implied romance and expectations. Expectations... I don't like them. Hardly anyone lives up to my expectations. And I KNOW for certain I rarely meet others' expectations of me. Sigh. Is this what people called "low self-esteem" or having a pessimistic personality?
Obviously I prefer to think that I'm extremely practical. It's better to hold no or low expectations of people, so I don't get disappointed. Sigh. That strategy never works! Because it is impossible not to form certain expectations of someone, especially if he's new to your life. I want that attractive all-in-one package personalized just for me. Then the more you peel away the layers, the less attractive the package becomes. So where was I? Oh - Yes, getting to know someone new can be exciting as well, if we both surpass each others expectations. Arrgh! Did I mention I really really don't like expectations?
So... How was the food? Well, it was slightly below my expectations.
Did my "friendly dinner" someone succeed or surpass my expectations? Yes! For now anyways!
Totally adorable. Fun. Interested in what I had to say. Great smile. Good kisser. Mmm.
Man... I guess this was a date after all.
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