Yesterday we held our X'mas eve celebration at my apartment. We went to House of Fragrant (formerly Lu's Garden) to have porridge and Taiwanese side dishes. It was the perfect feast for X'mas eve. We came back and Dave made an excellent pear tart. We also watched Serial Mom, which was loved by some of us and hated by the rest. There was some serious tension brewing after the viewing, and the situation was about to escalate into some truly unnecessary couple's quarrel, so I intervened and saved the day by forcing everyone open the presents at 11 o'clock instead of midnight. I know, sometimes you have to make something happen in order to distract and redirect attention to what's more important. Yes I saved our X'mas eve.
Today I received a text from someone in my past. He was someone whom I was infatuated with 2 years ago. It was a severe case of I liked him more than he liked me. Things between us ended unexpectedly, and except for the occasional flashback, I tried not to dwell in the brief memories we once shared. I did not know how to reply after he wrote "Keep in touch! Hope to see you sometime soon." Suddenly the train of thought took off, and I was chasing, running down the memory lane. I typed, and retyped, then reworked some more on my response to his surprise text. I saved my draft and a minute later checked on it again. I even asked my friends what to write so I wouldn't sound desperate. In the end, I erased my response and stopped that train. Some things are best left unstirred once settled. What we had was awesome while it lasted. It might be OK now if we were to restart, but most likely we would walk right back to where we ended. Call me pessimistic or insecure, the message he sent today simply meant that he too, was feeling lonely during the holidays and needing a familiar voice to side with... It meant nothing more.
It was nice though, that he considered me.
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