Cold!

The temperature in LA dropped today. The afternoon was very warm, but felt quite cold in the morning and the night. Has the fall finally arrived? I heard on the news we would still see some hot days ahead. I am not sure if I am ready for jackets and sweaters. I mean, my AC was running just a day ago. Anyway, people never stop complaining about the weather. It was either too this or too that. I do miss rain though, we haven't seen enough of that this year. That will be something to look forward to this fall and winter.

Pleased

Today's phone interview went well. I was pleased with how I did. I should know the outcome by the end of the week. It felt nice to move forward a tiny step. Caretas made ravioli and chicken salad tonight, they were delicious. At first I was thinking about going out for dinner, but having and enjoying a meal with her was way better. Megan is back and I'm going to see her tomorrow. Sylvia will be back tomorrow too. October is shaping up to be a pretty awesome month.

One Step Closer

Home alone today. Talked to Dad for almost an hour. Told him about mom and I was glad he understood. I still am waiting to see what comes next. Tomorrow will be one step closer. Sometimes I think my life is wonderful, I have a lot of supportive friends and I can count on many people always. Then there are times I feel unfulfilled, I don't have a goal, a passion, or a career. I'd like to believe there are others who feel the same. I'm taking one step at a time, getting to know myself better, and hopefully finding my path sooner than later. Even if it's not definite, at least I know I have a strong base to back me up when I need it. So in that sense, I live a very blessed life.

Bland

Feeling bland. Hung out with PK and David yesterday. It felt nice to get out of the house and talk about other people's lives. Had lunch with Caretas yesterday too, that was fun. Got some stuff at Ross. Retail therapy always helps lift my mood. Today I worked half a day. Did some banner and display artwork, feeling quite useful and productive. For some reason I couldn't sleep at all last night. Was tossing and turning, AC was on, then I shut it off, then it was back on, along with the fan. I felt like a hot mess, so was my room. I thought goals would be more or less clearer by today, that didn't happen. I will have to wait 2 more days. I have time, and patience. This is probably why I'm feeling bland.

Almost time

I am getting closer to making a decision. Some time tomorrow or Friday I should have a better idea where I am heading. Even if I decide to stay put, that will be something. If I am to move forward, I will have a couple of options. Just little more patience I will soon find out what happens next. I actually looked at some college courses today too. They are kind of expensive, of course. Sigh. That can open another door to productivity. We'll see.

Sawtelle again

Hung out with Dave today. I saw a CD that Dave wanted in Sawtelle last night, and he couldn't wait 'til Wednesday to go. I finished working around 1:30 and drove over to his place. We first had lunch at Govinda's in Culver City. Lots of vegetarian goodies, buffet style too, but since we got there a little bit late, we had to rush to get our second plates before they put everything away. We then went to get the CD, and a couple of other new finds. By the time we got on the freeway, it was way slow. So Dave decided that he wanted to go to Record Trader to shop some more. He spent some time hunting and sampling, and we walked out with another 2 CDs. On the way home, we talked. It was nice to learn what's new in his life and what he's focusing on - I was a little sleepy at first, but after he rolled up the window and turned the AC on, I was all ears.

Sawtelle

Went out and had dinner in Curry House on Sawtelle tonight. It was pretty good, although a little pricey for chicken katsu curry. We also went to Yogurtland in the same plaza for some icy treats. It was a cool night out. Sometimes it's nice to see the other side of town. It had been a while since I visited Sawtelle during the night hours. I must say I really had a good time.

Precious

This morning I finally went to see my landlord about my non-turning disposal. She didn't show up 'til 5:30 PM. I waited all day and was feeling very annoyed. Even in my nap I was thinking about why she had not come yet! Sometimes I get frustrated easily. Am I really that precious? I try not to be, but sometimes stuff just gets to me :( She had some metal plate tool and used it to poke inside and around a bit, and suddenly my disposal was working again. She should have left that thing with me. I would be needing it again tomorrow.

Tonight I made three new friends. Dave introduced Linda and Stefaan to the group, and PK's friend Abe brought his friend Chris to our big dinner party. It began small, with just PK David and I. Then it turned into a 15 people party. We went to Hong Yei of course. We always have the best food, best service, and best time dining there. Afterwards we went to Fosselman's for ice cream treats. It was another wonderful evening spent with my favorite people.

Heat is back

Caretas came back last night, so did the heat. Oh dear, who knew the LA heat was going to return this quickly? Once again I have my AC on. It's not as bad as two weeks ago, still it's not comfortable. Caretas and I went out and had lunch at Hometown Buffet, one of her favorites. She's feeling better and I can't be happier for her. We shopped a little bit too. I came back, rested some more, and found my disposal stopped working again. It's annoying. I would reset it and turn it back on, repeat that several times. It just refused to turn. I think I'm going to have to talk to my landlord about it tomorrow. It better not start turning suddenly when she checks it!

Feeling better

My stomach is doing much better today. Thank goodness because I am going to Dave's tonight and all that food must be eaten somehow. I have spent most of this week alone. I haven't seen any friends or gone anywhere exciting, besides Megan, gym and grocery shopping. I think that's good. Sometimes taking time to be by yourself and figuring things through is a good exercise. Just don't do it too often, it can make a person too self involved and easily moody.

Lactose Intolerant

I went on one giant lactose intolerant trip today. I ate a half of the 85c's cheese cream pastry in the morning, and I was in and out of the bathroom for the rest of the day. Oh it was not pleasant. Sometimes I can handle dairy fine, sometimes like today my body just outright rejects it. Obviously I ended up eating very little tonight and am still feeling kind of weak. I'm hoping tomorrow I'll be 100% again. How could something taste good be so mean?!

Making waves

Work today was very relaxing. I improved some flyers for the show in Vegas. I also met a couple of employees from Singapore and learned a little more about the company. The afternoon went by smoothly too. Megan stopped by to get some BBB coupons that I was throwing away. I wondered how much she saved. The gym was easy breezy. I didn't feel like a nap afterwards. This morning while on Skype I told mom that I will finalize my plans by this weekend. She was staying late in the bakery because she had gotten a lot of orders for the quickly arriving Moon Festival. It's nice to know that she's working hard and doing well. It motivates me to want to make some waves too.

Things done

I got a few things done today. Bills were paid. Gifts were bought. Present sent. Yea some spending, but all necessary. I got my DMV Certificate of Title today. Yay! That was pretty awesome. Megan dropped by and gave me baked goods from 85° from Irvine. She told me she was shocked to see the place was so packed last night. Seriously I've heard so much about this Taiwanese bakery their stuff better be freaking phenomenal! In the end I decided to eat the pastries tomorrow for breakfast. Sweet stuff is just not very dinner-ish to me. I have a half a day of work tomorrow. I really shouldn't have taken that nap!

Dinner at Jen's

Went to Jen's for dinner tonight. I had not seen her for so long! It was great to spend quality time with my old friend again. She reassured me that I wasn't the only one looking for jobs. Every now and then it's nice to hear that from someone else, hahaha. She seemed less stressed, and Steve was in a good mood too. She made grilled chicken and green salad, it was healthy and delicious. The wedding is just a month away. It is such a time and money consuming event! I really admire them for figuring everything out and sticking to the plans. We watched a little bit of VMA, which was a complete train wreck. Then we just switched and watch the Design Star finale, which was more entertaining. I probably won't see them again until their big day. Everyone's moving forward, I hope I get to do that sometime this year too.

Great Picnic

Had a great day today. The picnic party Dave and Jose threw went very well. We picked a shady spot that served us well, not too hot or too cold. There was a lot of food: sandwich stuff, salad stuff, vegetables and fruits, all kinds of cheeses, different drinks, coffee, etc. It was a true outdoor feast. Dave also made a pie that blew everyone's mind away. There was 9 of us, but the park was pretty much empty and quiet until a lot later. We saw the pool was drained, that's probably the reason we didn't see that many people. It was just a great party.

Renewed!

I read somewhere a while ago that number 9 is a good number for me. I usually try not to be superstitious, but this lucky number 9 thing ended up planting firmly in my head. Needless to say, I feel today, 09-09-09, is all kinds of special. So I planned many exciting things for myself. First of all, I cleaned my apartment. Yeah, I did! I might not have done that great of a job with the bathtub but I certainly gave it my good old college try. Three separate times I used 3 different cleaning techniques and solutions to work that thing. Even though it was still not spotless, I patted myself in the back and was quite proud of myself for trying, hahaha! Besides cleaning my place I also went ahead and cleaned my car. No I didn't do it myself, but I did drive it to a machine wash place several miles away to give it a nice, alright washing, brushing, and drying. Yay! The last thing I did today that I thought was kind of special was I finally updated my FB photo. I joined the site almost a year ago, and today feels like the right time to upload a new self pic. Now I'm going to go and clean myself. I feel renewed!

Blunt

I had a normal day today. I had work, had nap, and had gym. Pretty standard. I haven't been hanging out with my neighbor much these days. I was over at her place one night last week and after she told me how sick she was feeling again, I kind of flipped. She was always ill. I usually was sympathetic, but last week I was just... I told her that she needed to tell her doctor what she was feeling and she should change her doctor if she couldn't trust her diagnosis or treatment. I wish I wasn't so short to react like that, but I was very frustrated. She has a tendency to complain about this, about that, then more about this and that some more. The talk's repetitive, it can drag on and on, and it doesn't seem to improve. I would listen, and suggest ways to take care of herself and her pains, but there was always something else, some reason that would hold her back, that would cause her to not cut the cycle of issues. She couldn't make her doctor's appointment. The doctor didn't care what she said. The drugs she gave her made her sick, etc. I was always dumbfounded when she said she couldn't eat because she was having stomach pains, then she went ahead and ate butter and drank coffee. I don't know, if you're having stomachache dairy or coffee doesn't sound like the best choice of food to have. I told her that too, but she would shrugged it off, and continued to feel ill. Ugh! I feel bad for being blunt. At the same time, I just cannot take in any of her daily "I'm sick" speech anymore. I get it, she's depressed. I am too, but I don't lay it on her every time I see her. Ugh! I don't know. I feel like I'm a jerk. She's always been nice to me, why can't I just shut up and listen? I think I am already fed up with my own crap and I see myself going through that stupid cycle internally and I can't get out. I hope I don't whine and whine to my friends, I am really really sorry if I act like that. My neighbor was apologetic after I told her that every time I see her she's doing this, and she said she would stop, which is why I haven't seen her much... I hate making my friends feel bad, because in turn that makes me feel like an inconsiderate moron. I did have to react though. I wanted her to see that she could help herself, the choice's hers. Kind of like repeating that to me, hahaha. We'll see what happens next.

BBQ outside

Today was pretty uneventful. I didn't go out to meet up with anyone. I just watched random TV and stayed in mostly. The weather was comfortable for a change. I left the AC off the whole day. My neighbor was doing some bbq outside, so my place smelled smoky for a while. At first I thought the LA fire was reignited, but it was just his charcoal and burned meat.

Fuzzy

I went to bed really early last night, like around 10. Usually I don't go to bed before 11, but yesterday I just felt like there wasn't anything worth staying up for, not TV, not the net, not phone calls, just time to shut everything down. Of course I woke up around 4 in the morning. I argued with myself if I should go back to sleep or stay up. I did a little bit of both. Around 6 am I went back to bed and got up again after 9... The rest of the day was a little fuzzy. I went out, got gas, and was lost for a while. Thank goodness Dave got me a map, because I wasn't using my GPS today. Who knew I would get so lost by making just one wrong turn? I shopped at Marshall's a bit, came back home, had a small lunch, and dear heavens I slept again. It got really hot, so I got up from my afternoon nap around 5, and waited for Dave and Jose to come by so we could have dinner. We went to a new Chinese restaurant (I didn't bother to take down the name) that didn't carry that many vegetarian dishes. Dave didn't get to eat much, and I felt bad. We watched America's Best Dance Crew and Design Star back to back. It was a laid-back evening with two of my favorite people.

Big weekend

The big Labor Day weekend is here! It doesn't make that much a difference in my life, really, except for the fact that my friends are going to have more free time to enjoy themselves. I will probably try to go see Extract if I have a chance, and hang out with Dave and Jose. Other than that I don't have a lot of plans, just the way I like it :)

Gone to the movie

I saw 500 Days of Summer today. The movie's very cute and lovely, a perfect movie for couples. Yea I went by myself, but I still enjoyed it. The casting's perfect, the story's believable, the direction's fresh, the acting's strong, the music's cool and effective, overall it's just a great, solid romance comedy with a touch of indie-ness. Zooey's super adorable, and Joseph Gorden Levitt's very charming. He was phenomenal in Mysterious Skin, over-the-top in GI Joe, and now a quirky and sensitive guy in 500 Days of Summer. So versatile. He's like the new Johnny Depp.

Better mood

I'm in a better mood today. I don't really worry about the unknowns, I feel it all will work out themselves. My job is to focus on now and take care of myself. That's that. Cameron came to visit me today and we had lunch at Golden Deli. It had been a long while since I had any Vietnamese food and I was happy to enjoy it again with a friend. The rest of the day went smoothly, I took a nap and went out to do some grocery shopping. That and I also worked in the morning, and exercised tonight.