Renewed!

I read somewhere a while ago that number 9 is a good number for me. I usually try not to be superstitious, but this lucky number 9 thing ended up planting firmly in my head. Needless to say, I feel today, 09-09-09, is all kinds of special. So I planned many exciting things for myself. First of all, I cleaned my apartment. Yeah, I did! I might not have done that great of a job with the bathtub but I certainly gave it my good old college try. Three separate times I used 3 different cleaning techniques and solutions to work that thing. Even though it was still not spotless, I patted myself in the back and was quite proud of myself for trying, hahaha! Besides cleaning my place I also went ahead and cleaned my car. No I didn't do it myself, but I did drive it to a machine wash place several miles away to give it a nice, alright washing, brushing, and drying. Yay! The last thing I did today that I thought was kind of special was I finally updated my FB photo. I joined the site almost a year ago, and today feels like the right time to upload a new self pic. Now I'm going to go and clean myself. I feel renewed!

Blunt

I had a normal day today. I had work, had nap, and had gym. Pretty standard. I haven't been hanging out with my neighbor much these days. I was over at her place one night last week and after she told me how sick she was feeling again, I kind of flipped. She was always ill. I usually was sympathetic, but last week I was just... I told her that she needed to tell her doctor what she was feeling and she should change her doctor if she couldn't trust her diagnosis or treatment. I wish I wasn't so short to react like that, but I was very frustrated. She has a tendency to complain about this, about that, then more about this and that some more. The talk's repetitive, it can drag on and on, and it doesn't seem to improve. I would listen, and suggest ways to take care of herself and her pains, but there was always something else, some reason that would hold her back, that would cause her to not cut the cycle of issues. She couldn't make her doctor's appointment. The doctor didn't care what she said. The drugs she gave her made her sick, etc. I was always dumbfounded when she said she couldn't eat because she was having stomach pains, then she went ahead and ate butter and drank coffee. I don't know, if you're having stomachache dairy or coffee doesn't sound like the best choice of food to have. I told her that too, but she would shrugged it off, and continued to feel ill. Ugh! I feel bad for being blunt. At the same time, I just cannot take in any of her daily "I'm sick" speech anymore. I get it, she's depressed. I am too, but I don't lay it on her every time I see her. Ugh! I don't know. I feel like I'm a jerk. She's always been nice to me, why can't I just shut up and listen? I think I am already fed up with my own crap and I see myself going through that stupid cycle internally and I can't get out. I hope I don't whine and whine to my friends, I am really really sorry if I act like that. My neighbor was apologetic after I told her that every time I see her she's doing this, and she said she would stop, which is why I haven't seen her much... I hate making my friends feel bad, because in turn that makes me feel like an inconsiderate moron. I did have to react though. I wanted her to see that she could help herself, the choice's hers. Kind of like repeating that to me, hahaha. We'll see what happens next.

BBQ outside

Today was pretty uneventful. I didn't go out to meet up with anyone. I just watched random TV and stayed in mostly. The weather was comfortable for a change. I left the AC off the whole day. My neighbor was doing some bbq outside, so my place smelled smoky for a while. At first I thought the LA fire was reignited, but it was just his charcoal and burned meat.

Fuzzy

I went to bed really early last night, like around 10. Usually I don't go to bed before 11, but yesterday I just felt like there wasn't anything worth staying up for, not TV, not the net, not phone calls, just time to shut everything down. Of course I woke up around 4 in the morning. I argued with myself if I should go back to sleep or stay up. I did a little bit of both. Around 6 am I went back to bed and got up again after 9... The rest of the day was a little fuzzy. I went out, got gas, and was lost for a while. Thank goodness Dave got me a map, because I wasn't using my GPS today. Who knew I would get so lost by making just one wrong turn? I shopped at Marshall's a bit, came back home, had a small lunch, and dear heavens I slept again. It got really hot, so I got up from my afternoon nap around 5, and waited for Dave and Jose to come by so we could have dinner. We went to a new Chinese restaurant (I didn't bother to take down the name) that didn't carry that many vegetarian dishes. Dave didn't get to eat much, and I felt bad. We watched America's Best Dance Crew and Design Star back to back. It was a laid-back evening with two of my favorite people.

Big weekend

The big Labor Day weekend is here! It doesn't make that much a difference in my life, really, except for the fact that my friends are going to have more free time to enjoy themselves. I will probably try to go see Extract if I have a chance, and hang out with Dave and Jose. Other than that I don't have a lot of plans, just the way I like it :)

Gone to the movie

I saw 500 Days of Summer today. The movie's very cute and lovely, a perfect movie for couples. Yea I went by myself, but I still enjoyed it. The casting's perfect, the story's believable, the direction's fresh, the acting's strong, the music's cool and effective, overall it's just a great, solid romance comedy with a touch of indie-ness. Zooey's super adorable, and Joseph Gorden Levitt's very charming. He was phenomenal in Mysterious Skin, over-the-top in GI Joe, and now a quirky and sensitive guy in 500 Days of Summer. So versatile. He's like the new Johnny Depp.

Better mood

I'm in a better mood today. I don't really worry about the unknowns, I feel it all will work out themselves. My job is to focus on now and take care of myself. That's that. Cameron came to visit me today and we had lunch at Golden Deli. It had been a long while since I had any Vietnamese food and I was happy to enjoy it again with a friend. The rest of the day went smoothly, I took a nap and went out to do some grocery shopping. That and I also worked in the morning, and exercised tonight.