Somehow I've gotten this itchy red bump on my lower back, above my right butt cheek, that has been bothering me for a couple of days now. I have applied "maximum strength" cortisone on the spot thinking it would help, not so much. I have also used this Chinese or Japanese ointment called MOPIKO-S on it before bedtime, still it does nothing. At first I thought it was acne, now I think it's a masquito bite. I can't sit or stand or move without thinking about it - SO VERY ITCHY + ANNOYING!
I saw one of my high school friends in 99 Ranch Market today. She didn't see me. I didn't want her to see me either. I always think it's awkward to say hi to people that I have not been in touch with for a long time. They have changed, so have I. Of course I feel I have become less attractive (OLD), I have accomplished little (No money), and I question if there is any real connection left (WHO is this person?) - So I stay far far away, hide behind any person or any object, or turn my head away casually or even if the situation requires, squat down suddenly, just so I can avoid that awkward "Hi!" Come to think of it, I actually have had more than one blast from the past at various 99 Ranch throughout the years. Strange.
Thank goodness Dave wasn't there today. Whenever he finds out I'm hiding from someone, he goes after that person and tries to "help" us reconnect. Nope, let things be please.
Unless I look better than that person, seem richer than that person, and I can tell he or she totally remembers me - I don't want to reconnect. Yeah I am bad like that.
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