26 August 2008

What to do

I wish I had some kind of a direction or some life ambition or "the ultimate goal." These days I dread going into the downtown building where I work. I think about leaving and getting another job. At the same time I wonder if that's the right path to take. What if the new job disappoints me again?

I want to take a break and travel. I think about visiting dad, who in October will fly to China to celebrate his uncle's birthday. It's been a long time since I saw him. Mom's also in China now. So it will be fun to see them both. Sigh. I don't know. But what if I don't find a job before October? I can't really take 2 weeks off from this new job yet. I don't like working here anyway. I just have a lot of questions and not a good answer to solve any one of them.

I've been thinking about working for myself too. Too bad I don't know anything about money and business. It only brings on more stress. Why can't I just be satisfied with what I have? Ugh. I don't know what to do with myself.

2 comments:

PK Eiselt said...

Internet Hugz!
But you should never settle.
Of course its hard to keep striving for something when you dont know what it is...

Hang in there though it will all work out.

If you do go to China - I'll house-sit /cricket-sit for you.
I'm getting real good at my chirping.

cakelicious said...

How nice! I will hopefully use your service and expertise sometime before 2009 LOL!