The weekend went away quickly and I didn't try to be productive. I am feeling down and uninspired most of the time. There are of course moments of positivity, however, they don't come very often. I know I shouldn't let a lousy job get to me like this. I tell myself to rise above, I succeed sometimes. "It's all a test. I must keep going..." It's the same old preaching I give myself everyday. Is it working? Sure. I just shut off all the voices and blank out. And I stop feeling happy just the same. I'm probably depressed, somewhat. What's new?
I signed up for facebook yesterday. I must admit it was fun and addictive, like when I started my account on myspace. For the first couple of weeks, I checked the site everyday and put thoughts on every little detail. I wondered if this would turn out just just the same, where I stopped finding it interesting after a month or so. Sigh. I am so unhappy.
I'm going to work this week. Then I don't know. Keep going until I find a job, and keep feeling miserable? Or just quit and give myself some time to regroup? Sigh.
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