I got my ticket confirmation today. It still feels unreal to me. 2 weeks ago I was miserable at my job, skipping work to go to interviews, complaining and stressing out whenever I could... last week I got laid off, this Sunday I'm flying to Shanghai to visit my mom, and then Wuhan to see my dad. It's like a train that suddenly started to move after I decided that I should take this trip. For once I am happy to go with the flow and not over-worry what-if's down the line. What will happen will.
Sometimes I'm so at peace with everything, I surprise myself. For a big portion of this year I was unhappy because of my job situation. At first, I wanted to leave the company I was with for 7 years badly. 3 months later I got a new job. I jumped from one company to another without taking a break. 2 weeks later I knew this new place was not right for me. 1 month later I started searching for jobs again. Stress crept back into my life this time stronger than ever. Now I really hated my job and my supervisor, it created this bottomless hole that sucked almost all the optimism and hope I had in me. Then I was let go. It was a welcoming relief. No one wants to be rejected, however, when it's a horrible job that pushes you out, it doesn't really hurt much. It just sucked that they dumped me before I dumped them! Then again, if I were still working there, I wouldn't be able to take off 3 weeks to visit my parents.
So after all the ups and downs, the train is looking up and tight. It's going towards a new direction, and I am going to enjoy it.
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