The process

I have been thinking about this for a few days now. Because I still haven't heard any good response regarding my job search, I start to wonder if "graphic designer" is the right path for me. Sure I have the right experience and the right skills, but I don't know if I truly love what I do. I suppose I can take a risk and tackle something else, but what? And what if the pay is even worse? I sometimes wish I have that certain passion to do something or be someone. Some people have it and always seem so focused and driven. Where is mine?

These days I'm looking at the job postings, responding, and getting nowhere. Is this all a big sign to tell me to change the direction of where I am heading? Am I to take a break? Or is it truly just the economy? It feels like I'm just getting impatient again and trying to answer the unanswerable.

Life is a series of waits. You set a goal. You make an effort. Then you wait for the result. Sometimes you think you wanted something, but when you get it, you realize it actually isn't right for you. So you take a deep breath. Then repeat the process. I wonder where I am in this process now.